it had to happen, it was just a matter of time. actually i wasn't 'the proper' girlfriend who he desired to be, for one le grand phd, le professeur. he wanted proper wife who would bring him slippers after work, cook meals, clean dishes and table, clean the house and have sex when he wants (the bigger the geek - the rare sex theory?), and there was lack of real intimacy in all its facets.. let's get clear: i adore cooking for the one i love, and to be intimate and have sex as I wish three times per day, if possible, but hey (as being rebellious and feisty, long long time ago) I refused to be a slave, i refused to color my hair into blond (sorry, blonds), wear very high heels and show off my long legs, so I 'could perfectly match with his new phd-winning BMW'. isn't that sick for a man who is in his 37 or is it maybe pre-early midlife crises?
so, finally news came one day (shall i say evening) while i was blogging and writing so dedicated, that he is married (fresh married) and that our mutual (his best friend) refused to be his godfather when he saw his 'choice': present 'ms. phd' - actually, poor girl doesn't know or has reached more than high school, but hey: who wouldn't marry phd professor???
me!
those that really worth are taken and seems that all of my ex's are getting married, pardon -me: they are married! i said no: twice, i couldn't, i was too young and was afraid, wasn't sure. now i perceive that i was right. i am fabulous and cook for dearest around me, clean when i want to, do not wear home slippers, and i love, really love the natural color of my hair, i doesn't have to wear high heels, and label of the cars was never my cup of tea.
i am telling myself that this 'big' love, when it was love, and not animosity, and breaking up was the right decision i made.
and claim that i will go to monastery if he, then, my last (but not least), boyfriend got married, is out of question. i will not go to monastery, i recalled - after him i had great dating time with 8 years younger boyfriend who was much caring and really great guy (but it was 'my fault' as I broke up because of my inner prejudices of 'younger guy-older girl relationship' issue). at least, i do not have to worry if this guy will get married before me, or should i?
...maybe i am not the marrying kind.
4 comments:
nice blog
thanks!
Maybe this man simply wanted to strut his "smartness" over another human being and you were too smart to fall into such a trap. :-)
exactly! he wanted 'slave' wife, and didnt compromise and communicate with me in right way.
he got what he wanted: not-smart, blond, obedient, and submissive girl.
: )
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