looping

during your 20's you are full of energy, you want to conquer the world, you think you know everything (the most of the issues you know, but...) , you fly too high, you are on the top of the world, multitasking, from one 'pond'to the 'other', life is so easy, you jump in the winter to the cold ocean, run into the skies in the summertime, go out at 1 am to look for the stars and listen to the sound of silence, make wonders, events, projects, have your equipe, your life, or at a time you share a life with someone, and everything seems great when things start to fall appart.
many things became vague. difficult.
and then one day...approaching to your 30's, you suddently burn out (if not before, you are lucky).
yes, you are wise, sage, you know who you are/where are your limits/what do you want from life, you've been there-done that. if you are lucky and have great best friends (your parents who are not there, but are there when needed/alert situation), people are strange you realize, also selfish, and more than that (see Animal farm-Orwell). and all familiar faces became distant and unfamiliar, close(r) to you are not there/doesnt want to understand, those who are far away are not here (ironic)/doesnt or cannot understand you.
you are in the loop.
the question is how to get out?
it is not easy as one may think.
it is not about taking one leg and then the other out.
no, no:)
you think it is, but in practice is much complicated.
events/surrounding/people/inner-self/time&place/all do that.
facades/layout/interface/looks/fat/slim/ do it.
media/people/media/people/institution/politics do it.
and you are responsible for that.
one expereince loop in a lifetime
one - never.

love (in broader or narrow sense, or however you want to interpret it).

tonight on loop: nina simone & don't let me be misunderstood